JEMTheNerd
June 17th, 2018, 03:16 AM
As of right now, I've officially been a member on this site for an entire year!!! :thud: tbh the time has flown! When I first joined this site I was very upset with my hair, or rather how others viewed it. It was six months after I shaved my head into a faux hawk and spent it being treated very different than what I was with long hair. It was learning experience though!!! I was able to experiment with such a huge change and even if those around me hated it, I loved it while I had it. It's been a year now and my hair is about six inches longer than it was this time last year. I wanna share some of the changes I've gone through in one year!! Maybe everyone else can do the same, too!
- I've learned to treat myself and my hair with more respect than ever before. I used to hate myself to the point I'd never let my picture be taken, or be seen without a hoodie on. I'm beautiful, and I really mean that. I'm not fat, I'm healthy. I fell into anorexia for about six months and I was never more depressed. I've broken out of it long ago and I'm ok now, I'm eating and maintaining a weight healthy for me. Just a few hours ago I saw myself in my one piece swim suit and I was stunned. I couldn't believe that was me. The person with deep curves and broad hips and shoulders, the person with the full lips and bright eyes, the person with subtle, yet visible cheek bones and a nice jaw line. I never believed when my parents told me that I'm lucky because I'm an hour glass but boy I do now. I just stared forever, I took in myself in such a different view that I stunned myself. Usually whenever I looked in the mirror I was looking for flaws, all of them. But this time, this time I took in my perfections and I thought to myself for the first time since I was very small that I'm not undesirable... I'm.. pretty.
- I've started to think about what I want to be rather than what I need to be. I always told myself I'd be a doctor because I want a stable life financially. I also handle (Crave) stress. A few months ago though, my dad looked at me and said in such a sad tone "Ya know, I've never heard you say you wanted to be something because you love it." And it hit me deep, because I knew he was right. I knew I'd never take a class I wanted to because I liked it. I always took classes I knew would look good on my transcript. I changed that. I immediately emailed my counselor and asked (begged) to be put into an acting class. I got in. I'm taking classes next year I want to, to discover myself further because I love the idea of being a Marvel actress but I never believed in myself enough to even entertain that fantasy. Well, I'm not only entertaining that fantasy but I'm actively working to pursue it. If I don't like acting, I know for a fact I love voice acting- I do it as a hobby. I want to focus more on my happiness rather than my silly worries.
- I'm enjoying the slower paced process of things, like growing my hair out. I used to get frustrated and angry it wouldn't just grow faster but I've reached freedom from the mullet stage and am at a more in style of the season look. Those lovely bobs and lobs everyone's getting these days- I feel fashionable and I love it. I want to continue to grow my hair and I'm going to enjoy watching it change as I myself do nonstop. I grow as a person, as my hair grows.
I know this is pretty ridiculous to be posting something so not hair related on a hair forum, but I feel like I've changed a lot and I'm proud... Small steps always lead to bigger ones and I want these steps I'm taking, like not ever using heat on my hair and not washing my hair every day to help me learn to care for my hair better. Just as me taking steps to a dream that may be ridiculous, but not impossible. I want to hear your changes, and your steps too... :)
I want to thank everyone here too, from sharing pictures and tips- even motivation when I'm frustrated and unable to just understand myself. Y'all are amazing and I hope every single one of you achieve any dream and goal you can. <3 Thank you so much for making me apart of your community.
- I've learned to treat myself and my hair with more respect than ever before. I used to hate myself to the point I'd never let my picture be taken, or be seen without a hoodie on. I'm beautiful, and I really mean that. I'm not fat, I'm healthy. I fell into anorexia for about six months and I was never more depressed. I've broken out of it long ago and I'm ok now, I'm eating and maintaining a weight healthy for me. Just a few hours ago I saw myself in my one piece swim suit and I was stunned. I couldn't believe that was me. The person with deep curves and broad hips and shoulders, the person with the full lips and bright eyes, the person with subtle, yet visible cheek bones and a nice jaw line. I never believed when my parents told me that I'm lucky because I'm an hour glass but boy I do now. I just stared forever, I took in myself in such a different view that I stunned myself. Usually whenever I looked in the mirror I was looking for flaws, all of them. But this time, this time I took in my perfections and I thought to myself for the first time since I was very small that I'm not undesirable... I'm.. pretty.
- I've started to think about what I want to be rather than what I need to be. I always told myself I'd be a doctor because I want a stable life financially. I also handle (Crave) stress. A few months ago though, my dad looked at me and said in such a sad tone "Ya know, I've never heard you say you wanted to be something because you love it." And it hit me deep, because I knew he was right. I knew I'd never take a class I wanted to because I liked it. I always took classes I knew would look good on my transcript. I changed that. I immediately emailed my counselor and asked (begged) to be put into an acting class. I got in. I'm taking classes next year I want to, to discover myself further because I love the idea of being a Marvel actress but I never believed in myself enough to even entertain that fantasy. Well, I'm not only entertaining that fantasy but I'm actively working to pursue it. If I don't like acting, I know for a fact I love voice acting- I do it as a hobby. I want to focus more on my happiness rather than my silly worries.
- I'm enjoying the slower paced process of things, like growing my hair out. I used to get frustrated and angry it wouldn't just grow faster but I've reached freedom from the mullet stage and am at a more in style of the season look. Those lovely bobs and lobs everyone's getting these days- I feel fashionable and I love it. I want to continue to grow my hair and I'm going to enjoy watching it change as I myself do nonstop. I grow as a person, as my hair grows.
I know this is pretty ridiculous to be posting something so not hair related on a hair forum, but I feel like I've changed a lot and I'm proud... Small steps always lead to bigger ones and I want these steps I'm taking, like not ever using heat on my hair and not washing my hair every day to help me learn to care for my hair better. Just as me taking steps to a dream that may be ridiculous, but not impossible. I want to hear your changes, and your steps too... :)
I want to thank everyone here too, from sharing pictures and tips- even motivation when I'm frustrated and unable to just understand myself. Y'all are amazing and I hope every single one of you achieve any dream and goal you can. <3 Thank you so much for making me apart of your community.