AnqeIicDemise
June 19th, 2015, 12:37 AM
2014 was rough for me. I couldn't stand people and I pretty much went into hiding. Hence my absence.
With this funk, I got really, really, REALLY lazy in terms in of haircare.
I stopped writing my blog. I pretty much lived the year in a lazy bun and practiced benign neglect. I'd trim every three months or so, touch up the dip dye when I felt it was too orange and moved on. The truth is that Slayer holds the red really well but I pushed it far longer than necessary. Essentially, I was rolling out of bed and putting on dirty clothes, going to work and blah blah, blah. Wasn't taking care of myself in general.
But lately, I have.
I'm feeling better. I'm actively trying to do better, to live better. I am tired of crying myself to sleep, panic attacks and dealing with unnecessary BS. (Example: my mom's so self absorbed she hasn't realized that I've avoided having to interact with her for the last few months. Yes, yes my LHC friends, I've *finally* taken the advice and started to pull away.) I realized about a month ago that despite my sheer lack of care, Slayer of Things is inches away from classic.
But I wanted to chop it all off because you know, I was tired of the hum-drum of the lazy bun. I wanted something different. I have been, after all, changing parts of my life, why not my hair?
As any of you who have seen me around from years ago know, I am a red-head at heart. I like fun and funky colors but I keep going back to red. I also hate bleaching my hair because I always panic that I'll screw something up. I do it anyway, just .. I've only had the guts to do it for a few inches at a time, never the whole head. My dream of being a vibrant red head was never going to be a reality.
At least I thought so.
My friend and boss told me since I had virgin hair and it was so well taken care of, I could get away with L'Oreal's high lift for brunettes. I thought about it for about three months before I finally took the plunge.
And I don't regret it.
Today was one of those days where I felt like putting in the extra effort, be a little bit more fancy and just do something for myself. I had to stop by Sally's anyway to get another tube for the root touch up. I also wanted to surprise the hubby by picking him up from work and having a date night. I wore a pretty dress, some make up and I *gasp* wore my hair half-up half down for once. (I'm practicing for my Pinup Against Bullying inc photo shoot in August. I'm having a hard time coming up with a pinupy style for hair as long as mine. I only mention this because I need ideas. Bad.) I walk into the store and a woman nearly falls over and compliments Slayer. "Its so long and shiny!"
I kind of just smile, grab my stuff and hurry on out.
As I walk to the car, a little kid points to my hair and tells her mom "Look, a real life princess!"
I blush, get in the car and head to pick up hubby. We go to dinner.
I got a few more compliments and I tried not to crawl under the table and cry.
The truth? The SOB was being particularly difficult and I only had him loose because I was too lazy to fight him. I was super self conscious that he looked awful, perhaps a little frizzy (braid waves that had been brushed out) and I'd only half-arsed the style. I had originally tried to do victory rolls but... Slayer of Things is just too long. Kept tangling.
It made my day, honestly, the way I've been complimented on my hair today. I've been in such a slump that being told I have been doing something right all along, regardless of how lazy I had become made me feel good. Hell, proud even. Being stopped by strangers or pointed out doesn't really help my anxiety but I'm trying to stay positive.
With that quick update aside, anybody have ideas on what to do? I have until August to figure out a 1950's hair style and well... hair that you can sit on doesn't lend itself well to that style. I'm also looking forward to the PAB campaign so I don't want to bow out of it or fail the girls by not being able to style myself correctly. We have a MUAH artist who is willing to donate her time but... again, hair as long as mine is difficult to work with in this particular style. She hasn't a clue on how to help me. I rather be the one to style him anyway.
PS: For those who don't know me or haven't read any of my posts, Slayer of Things is my hair's name and he is a picky, tricky, pain in the arse.
With this funk, I got really, really, REALLY lazy in terms in of haircare.
I stopped writing my blog. I pretty much lived the year in a lazy bun and practiced benign neglect. I'd trim every three months or so, touch up the dip dye when I felt it was too orange and moved on. The truth is that Slayer holds the red really well but I pushed it far longer than necessary. Essentially, I was rolling out of bed and putting on dirty clothes, going to work and blah blah, blah. Wasn't taking care of myself in general.
But lately, I have.
I'm feeling better. I'm actively trying to do better, to live better. I am tired of crying myself to sleep, panic attacks and dealing with unnecessary BS. (Example: my mom's so self absorbed she hasn't realized that I've avoided having to interact with her for the last few months. Yes, yes my LHC friends, I've *finally* taken the advice and started to pull away.) I realized about a month ago that despite my sheer lack of care, Slayer of Things is inches away from classic.
But I wanted to chop it all off because you know, I was tired of the hum-drum of the lazy bun. I wanted something different. I have been, after all, changing parts of my life, why not my hair?
As any of you who have seen me around from years ago know, I am a red-head at heart. I like fun and funky colors but I keep going back to red. I also hate bleaching my hair because I always panic that I'll screw something up. I do it anyway, just .. I've only had the guts to do it for a few inches at a time, never the whole head. My dream of being a vibrant red head was never going to be a reality.
At least I thought so.
My friend and boss told me since I had virgin hair and it was so well taken care of, I could get away with L'Oreal's high lift for brunettes. I thought about it for about three months before I finally took the plunge.
And I don't regret it.
Today was one of those days where I felt like putting in the extra effort, be a little bit more fancy and just do something for myself. I had to stop by Sally's anyway to get another tube for the root touch up. I also wanted to surprise the hubby by picking him up from work and having a date night. I wore a pretty dress, some make up and I *gasp* wore my hair half-up half down for once. (I'm practicing for my Pinup Against Bullying inc photo shoot in August. I'm having a hard time coming up with a pinupy style for hair as long as mine. I only mention this because I need ideas. Bad.) I walk into the store and a woman nearly falls over and compliments Slayer. "Its so long and shiny!"
I kind of just smile, grab my stuff and hurry on out.
As I walk to the car, a little kid points to my hair and tells her mom "Look, a real life princess!"
I blush, get in the car and head to pick up hubby. We go to dinner.
I got a few more compliments and I tried not to crawl under the table and cry.
The truth? The SOB was being particularly difficult and I only had him loose because I was too lazy to fight him. I was super self conscious that he looked awful, perhaps a little frizzy (braid waves that had been brushed out) and I'd only half-arsed the style. I had originally tried to do victory rolls but... Slayer of Things is just too long. Kept tangling.
It made my day, honestly, the way I've been complimented on my hair today. I've been in such a slump that being told I have been doing something right all along, regardless of how lazy I had become made me feel good. Hell, proud even. Being stopped by strangers or pointed out doesn't really help my anxiety but I'm trying to stay positive.
With that quick update aside, anybody have ideas on what to do? I have until August to figure out a 1950's hair style and well... hair that you can sit on doesn't lend itself well to that style. I'm also looking forward to the PAB campaign so I don't want to bow out of it or fail the girls by not being able to style myself correctly. We have a MUAH artist who is willing to donate her time but... again, hair as long as mine is difficult to work with in this particular style. She hasn't a clue on how to help me. I rather be the one to style him anyway.
PS: For those who don't know me or haven't read any of my posts, Slayer of Things is my hair's name and he is a picky, tricky, pain in the arse.